Wednesday, March 30, 2016

The Un-Circle-able Center

or, The looking I


The uncreated Life, the Holiness and Grace, will never concede or cater to Man's desperate speculations (threadbare dreams) of survival.
God serves no clients; He inhabits living shrines.
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The un-belonging question versus the unutterable encounter...
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So what's "The Idea"?
Is my experience The Really Actual, or The Seeming Dream?
Will my looking eye conjure up an impoverished reality?
Or can Love's Heart shatter my narrowing lens?
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The rarest combination: the best in the highest;
The best in the highest: the only-begotten Son of God;
The only-begotten Son of God: your spirit will never encompass Him;
Be encompassed, and adore.
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Jesus embodies the fullness
Of fullness that transcends
All conceivable conception
Of fullness.

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Nunc Dimittis

This is the first sermon I composed upon my return to Ukraine after my 2015 furlough (June through New Year). I got invited to a whole bunch of churches right away upon my return and so I delivered this sermon about five times in as many weeks.



Each of us is allotted a certain time—or better, perhaps, I should say a certain interval of time, here on earth. An interval because, indeed, the normal order of things is that you and I are not here in this world. The norm in this sphere of existence is your, and my, absence. To each of us personally it is given to experience what a part in this world means, for an indescribably meager interval between our absence and…our absence!

I call this interval meager, and there’s no shortage of people who’d say it’s also meaningless. But “meager” is a measure of quantity, while “meaningless” is a measure of quality. And by divine revelation—supremely in the Person of Christ—we understand that quantity cannot be equated with quality, and that significance cannot be equated with worldly grandeur, and that our ultimate hope cannot be delineated by the dimensions of time and space or our short “visit” in this world.

In the epistle to the Hebrews it says that “it is appointed to man to die once, and then the judgment.” These words naturally sound intimidating, especially apart from their context (which we’ll say more about presently), but just stop and think for a moment about what this truth says about our significance. God, after all, does not judge the trees, or the deer, or the clouds—because they don’t bear within themselves the priceless treasure of the divine image. Judgment awaits Man precisely because to Man something more has been committed than a pitiful, meaningless “interval” between absence and absence. To Man has been committed a soul, the capacity and opportunity to contemplate eternally the very face of God and commune with Him in holy love.

And that’s why the place we noted in Hebrews goes on to say that, “so Christ also, offered in sacrifice once, to take away the sins of many people, will appear a second time, not to deal with sin but to save those who are waiting for Him.”

That is life’s quality in God’s eyes; that is the scope and range of our significance and hope in the sphere of His divine love. That is why He will appear a second time, to save.

And there’s the secret, the key, the essence of our peace when we stand face-to-face with death itself, with the fact of our “temporariness” on Earth. The essence of our peace is that we have utterly entrusted our fate, and our hope of everlasting significance and joy, into the hands of the Almighty Father, into the hands of the One who one day will appear to save those who await His coming.

With such peace of soul we can accept, even embrace, our brief, limited life and role in this world—yes, embrace our role that seems so insubstantial, so obscure, so ephemeral. The greatness of our life is not to be seen when we look in the mirror! It is seen when, by faith, we look upon the Author of life, Who has enfolded in us His sacred design, a design endlessly unfolding in our personal experience.

That, I think, was the state and condition of soul, one fine day, of a certain Simeon who had already lived out a host of unremembered days in an unnoticed life, but his life’s treasure was the design of God. And that’s what makes the difference between a life that gradually, incrementally, loses everything and a life that gradually, incrementally, gains everything. The difference lies in whether that life treasures, at its core, the design and intention of God Himself.  That life ends up with everything that could ever count, while a life that scrambles to aggrandize itself without regard to God finally has nothing. It reminds me of what Paul wrote to the Romans, in Romans 8:32: “He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all--how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?

We’ll read the well-known account of what happened when this Simeon encountered the newborn Christ in the temple, and while I could spend much time examining the text in the style of an “expository sermon”, what I really want to do today is meditate on the significance of two words, just two words today.

Let’s look at the passage: (read Luke 2:22-35, then re-read verse 29).

“Now you are dismissing”…. In the West, these words are quite famous, under the guise of the ancient Latin translation, as “NUNC DIMITTIS”. “Now you are dismissing.” We often call a moment in life, when everything seems to come together just perfectly, when we can’t imagine it being any better, a “Nunc Dimittis moment”. Imagine, for example, a world-famous violinist who has just executed a performance of the most complex, sophisticated composition with supreme, stunning, technical and aesthetic mastery. And as the applause and cheers resound, the violinist whispers to himself, “That was perfection…I can do no better…I’ve reached the mountaintop…Nunc dimittis.” Perhaps you’ve had such moments—not necessarily with a concert hall full of people applauding you, but just when everything thing seemed so completely perfect and harmonious, you thought, “I could die now and die happy and satisfied.”

Of course, when people say “Nunc dimittis! Take me, Lord, my life is complete!”, they are speaking, let’s say, poetically. If some kind soul showed up with a pistol to instantly materialize their wish, they’d be the first to say, “Uh, that was a figure of speech! Never mind! No thanks!”

Moreover, and more seriously, the same person who whispered “Nunc dimittis, Lord” in a surge of perfect satisfaction, will, in a day or two, or in a week or month from now, discover new aims and desires, projects and goals, ambitions and dreams, and he’ll say, “Nunc dimittis? No way! I’ve still got mountains to climb!”

But, when Simeon pronounced his “Nunc Dimittis”—“Now you are dismissing me”—he means it literally, sincerely and immediately! Plus, take note that Simeon is not allowing or permitting God to do anything. He isn’t saying, “All right, you can take me now.” No! He is recognizing what God is doing, here and now, whether Simeon happens to agree with it or not (note: he agrees with it).

The arrival of this Holy Infant in the temple is God’s unmistakable announcement to Simeon that the time has come, and Simeon embraces the announcement with exultation, in the very moment he holds the Light of the World and Hope of Israel in his trembling arms…. “This is the summit, the peak, the perfection of my life—for this I have lived, and my life is complete in the appearing of this Holy Infant….”

But we…perhaps…might be tempted to object, “Not so fast!” To say, “Hold on, Simeon! This is just the beginning. What with the Messiah here, don’t you want to…well, hang around and see what’ll happen? Wouldn’t you like to witness the miracles and hear the heavenly word of the Son of God? Don’t you feel the least bit regret that now, of all times, when everything is just getting going, you have to…leave? To leave and, just like before you were born, again be absent—play no part, make no more contribution to the unfolding of God’s astonishing design in the world?”

If I could have stood there next to Simeon that day and posed such questions, I am certain he’d have answered plainly and categorically, “No. I’m ready. I’m going. My departure is the unfolding of God’s holy design. That is my part to play, my essential role, in the never-ending revelation of His design. I embrace it ecstatically.”

It is given to a man once to live out his meager interval, and die.

But it is also given to man—and not to trees or deer or clouds!—to perceive, and willingly enter,  and begin to fathom the divine appointment for his life, and to consecrate himself to the Appointer, with exultation and meekness, with humility and thanksgiving, thanksgiving for the unique part and role each of us plays on the stage of God’s endlessly unfolding design.

With such meekness and exultation, with such humility and expectation, each of us will be able, one day, to whisper, finally, “Yes, Lord…nunc dimittisnow You are dismissing me from this world. My eyes have seen Your Salvation; my heart has held Your heavenly treasure; my spirit has cherished  Your light and cast all hope on Your glory in the face of Christ the Savior, Your only Son. I praise You for the interval allotted to me, my foretaste of Your never-ending Kingdom in the Redemption of Jesus Christ.”

Simeon’s climactic moment in life was also his closing one, but he didn’t object—he exulted! Exulted in God’s wisdom. Myriad unremembered days led to this moment, just as, in our lives, numberless forgotten moments must bring us, finally, to the end of our interval.

But in God’s eyes, every day, every hour, every moment of our lives is precious, because He is pursuing His holy purpose in every moment of it all, in us, in ways He never will through the trees or the deer or the clouds. And our confident assurance comes down to this: that He is our supreme eternal value; He is our future. That confident assurance is our foretaste of the moment when we finally whisper gratefully “Nunc dimittis…” and that will be…THE BEGINNING.

Saturday, March 19, 2016

A Month of Sentences (2)

His Grace's Invasion: Comprehension and Wholeness, the Divine Healing

His rich provision and will exact a price: communion with Him in suffering; communion with Him in suffering sanctifies a place for His dwelling.

Life's unremitting 'greaterness' overwhelms our capacity to take it in; Jesus' supremacy obviates our need to contain and settle it. 

The uncompromised totality of Christ's Redemptive Feat makes every alien alarm hollow and summons redeemed hearts to conceive the sole Majesty's real prospect.

We're undone and remade by Jesus' all-determining Feat of Life; our beatitude is the need that compels us into the new world of His Resurrection's conquest. 

All our initiative must flow from the initiative of God through abandonment to His singular, incomparable faithfulness. His faithfulness—the origin and spring of all faithfulness—streams from His sovereign freedom, the freedom that means infinite, unforeseeable horizons for us in God's supernal design.

Does God radiate through the sacred prism of our trusting surrender as freely as He ordains and informs Nature's unfathomable glories? Does our faith whisper of life's endless expanse streaming through the solitary prism of the Creator's love?

God's sole, all-originating fertility birthed the miracle of myriad selves: Adam's race. His sole, all-subduing love conceived primordially the final shape of things: Man fully, freely God's, and God fully, freely Man's. 

In love's liberation Man wills, in the resonance of Spirit and spirit, to submit to the Living Flame—to be, not consumed, but known

Our existential need to be divinely known will not be consummated if we let it outstrip and overwhelm the obedience that, alone, authentically confides our existential need to the divine destiny and conquest of Love. 

Exchange and Co-inherence: our need, His condescension; our blessing, His self-giving; our fulfillment, His limitless prospect; His perfection, our consecrated devotion.

We are beholden to hope and constrained to press on. Life's homeward drive concedes no lesser satisfaction or semblance of arrival; there is no 'there'...there

Renounce, resist, the unreal, the un-actual, that violates you and others through you; embrace the radical exigency of Love's transforming summons.

The ever-drawing, ever-transforming NEW, immutable and unsurpassable, inexhaustibly generated in the knowing love of Father and Son. 

Beatitude's burden is ceaseless passage on freedom's Way and Life's advance; entrance and arrival are marked in Holy Blood; the very Way's forward surge leaves no fixed place or possession for creaturely pride..."BLESSED ARE THEY...MY BURDEN IS LIGHT...I AM THE ALPHA AND THE OMEGA."

We can't evade or surmount what God wants; we are the grace-struck medium of His necessary revelation; life's intrinsic provision, and the riches thereof, are for realization of the single timeless sacred desire. 

Nothing: nothing greater, more essential, mightier, more fulfilling or compelling. Nothing. 

Divine appointment is divine vista; His right to us is the substance of our own deliverance and flourishing. 

A genuine willing spirit's embrace of divine demands defying expectation—this is the identity of courage; what is less than this is pretense, and pretense unchecked finally forfeits hope. 

Because of His right to us, we have no right to hopelessness; a conscience alive to God, a spirit meshed 'organically' with His urging Spirit—this is the identity of ebullient, vital creativity. 

Supernal Love's absolute design concedes no approximate fulfillment, contemplates no compromise, excludes no cost, shirks no truth, admits no illusions. 

Supernal Love never coddles His own but provokes and strains within them to commit His daunting will: redemption over retribution, beneficence over malice. 

The infinite Sacrifice of the infinite Sonship, Life's one eternal Ground relentlessly pushes up the shoots, and feeds the roots, of Life's full prospect and horizon; barren despair is mercilessly excluded and competing claims obliterated by Life's one Word: Follow. 

In the divine economy we aren't left to our own devices. The projections of 'the power and the glory' that emanate from our phantom-spinning souls are profitless and waste. Neither is a stake permitted us in the ephemeral conjurings of the Zeitgeist'Take care how you hear....' Bankrupt, all of us, our capitulation to His absolute dominion means our life's whole conversion—from desperate, doomed venture to endlessly unfolding, radiant vibrancy in the Real Life of God. 

The Divine healing is inseparable from the Self-giving and entrance of the Divine Person. Our commitment of choice, effort and devotion is the indispensable answer to Him and the seed of ripening glad vitality—yet a sword, too, 'shall pierce your heart.'

Comprehension and Wholeness: The Life of Father, Son and Spirit will not, finally, submit to our discernment; rather, The Life must be our discerning Center, defying and confounding the conceptual edifices of the sin-skewed world. 

His grace's invasion transfigures the mundane and meaningless into moments of sacrament, of encounter and consecration; the manageable turns fearsome, the fearsome discloses glimmers of transcendent joy, and the conquered-by-grace turns surrendered-in-Love.


Life is too much to cope with. Taking it all in is an impossible project. Thus the compelling need to come in—into the Ruling Source and Center. He deprives us of the inferior and unworthy in a shock of beatific loss, and circumscribes our being with love in the boundless harmony of a new creation. Such is the Creator's urgently benevolent intent. Cope? 'We are more than conquerors....'

Launchings and arrivals and the fateful choices between—all in God a story of call, answer, and becoming.

The inviolable, militant, self-existent Holiness: humanity's only, and sacred, Light of Life.

The variable and the invariable: contingency and ultimacy, love actualizing and Love summoning, perilous beginnings and perfection all-subsuming.


The primacy is His. Surrender to Him is need and love fulfilled. The Authorship is His. Surrender to Him is helplessness and courage transfigured in union. Eternity is His. Faith in Him is the moment transubstantiated in Kingdom Presence. 

Monday, March 14, 2016

The Soul Grown Deeper

or, Essential Duet

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Christ, the heart and Way to the heart of things.
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It is not inevitable that we should populate and demarcate life's inevitably vague horizons with fearsome phantoms and hopeless verdicts.
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Our being begets our seeing, which sparks our striving, which ordains the destination.
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There is a Strength, an undiminishable locus of Life, a holy Power that illumines endurance, a radiant Region of Imagination's birth, truth and materialization in Love; there is and because there is we say, 'I must....'
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The doorway in to Christ is the doorway out to 'rugged Reality'; the way in is open to those ready to follow Him out. There is no 'breaking in' to the secret places of God; there is only a breaking out—out into the open places of the Spirit, the Son-illumined expanses where every soul is His secret place.
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The royal highway from Sinai to Zion, from Alpha to Omega, from Epiphaneia  to Parousia, runs its course and measures its meaning through the valley of drudgery and humiliation, Christ-illuminated with faith-charged, radiant might.

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The truest life in spirit is marked by unconcious holiness, not anxiety whether holiness may ever be possessed. Beyond surrender, unconscious holiness makes the whole man whole; ever-extending vistas of righteousness compel him to offer what he cannot know is in him.
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The Beauty, Silence and Surrender: The infant soul clutches the beautiful thing to keep it forever, and grief follows; the soul grown deeper in Love surrenders to the Beauty that retreats and, by retreating, returns, and by returning remakes the soul for Its own forever.
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The most appalling sacrilege: to impose violence and disfigurement on the form and being of a divine child-spirit, whose Father alone knows how to pierce, train and transfigure.
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The mystery of individuality is the deepest--that of the eternal basis, of holy necessities, of the primal, unretreating hope.
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Arise and go to Him, Cry out to Him, and do; He will make sense, light, a kingdom... and you.
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There is no sublimity, no exquisiteness, of concept, of illumination, of inspiration or devotion, that is not magnified, perfected and surpassed in act.
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The contrite spirit--a sacrifice of will: ascent to the height only ever begins from wherever you are, if it is to begin at all.
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Bent upon Heaven: to yield to the fresh springs means un-clinging to the... remnants; soon or late, with light abandon or severing pang, it means letting go.
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It's in the seeing: to earn trouble dearly in shrewd but flawed, fading, self-stamped coin, or to look out from Love's safe, selfless harbor of Light.
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Before appearances and non-appearances, circumstances and forces, I speculate and doubt... I run to Honesty's door and knock... harmonious percussion greets my touch... calling calls to calling in essential duet: 'Come in... and enflesh the purpose'.
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Though it jar the soul and prod our deepest fortress-fears, the knocking at the door is the sound of Pity's hand, Compassion's urge, of holy, reclaiming Cure.
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Growing complete in Christ is a path filled with painful, creative tension, a path pervaded with countervailing, interweaving forces aimed at a single destination. 
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The faith-life created in Christ can only be known as His life, creating...and consuming in its fire whatever cannot live in faith.
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To chafe and brood
Over wounded rights
And tout my self-charged view
Is to smother His
Creating Breath
And drown
In proud confusion
The living hue
Of Grace.
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From the purging perimeter to the pervading center--the secret life in the depths of the fire. 
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The slave of Grace draws near the sacred mount with free hands, clean heart... and triumph's glow.
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The will to wake
The will to take 
The broken steps 
On
No matter the dream or draw 
Of backward glance 
Or sideways glimmer. 
Be it the dark you see 
Clearly ahead, 
Keep on, keep straight 
In faith and hope, 
And love the Light 
In which, in Whom 
You clearly see
It is not the dark 
Sees the dark
But Light infused-- 
Sees, steps, pierces, 
Masters in simplicity, 
And knows itself there.
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Caught up into the Greater-Than-Me, forever implanted in the wheeling love-bound circle, fully part of His un-comprehended fullness.
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Praise God--He gave the Church, His Bride, a sure and gushing spring of life, the living gauge of truth and Eternity's 'oil of gladness': The Paraclete, Who curbs pernicious pride, Who chides the stale distracted heart, Who tugs the drooping spirit up again to go and grow and flame with primal joy.
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The Next Thing: 'Behold, I am making everything new'... The adamant will, aggressive light, inexorable advent of the living God are despair's unmaking for the child of God.
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From the withering, world-cobbled dominion of things into the life-stirring ebullience of Kingdom brotherhood.
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The human heart enfolded by the timeless Life will incorrigibly blossom and burst with Life's fruits and--yes!--with sweet joy trace the changeless Face displayed on Heaven's swirling sky
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No horizon, however far, evades Hope's conquered domain, Her subdued territory and transfigured vista: the exultant embrace of first and last, sons and servants, creation's lords and the Lord's creation.
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Postscript: "Is my life a burgeoning song, gathering mass and expanse in Life Itself, or is it an incremental, insistent withdrawal from any experience that will not be confined to the boundaries of my fear?"